PAIN.... and what I've learned from it.
A brief overview of digging underneath the pain in my life, to discover what was causing it.
6/14/20264 min read
Oouuuuch!
The thing about pain is… It hurts. Really bad.
I’ve spent a lifetime dealing with painful experiences… Physically, mentally, emotionally, socially, financially…. So many.
I’m a positive person by nature, but since I’m experiencing some pain today, I think that’s what I will write about.
I’m sure you’ve had pain in your life too, and it’s not fun, is it?
Through the years I have studied the art of healing, and when we have a painful experience (especially in our adulthood), I’ve learned that there is a deeper source to that pain that originated in our past, and it is now manifesting in the physical/outer world.
So when I have any kind of pain, especially if it is a repetitive pattern of pain, I immediately start looking for the cause by digging into my subconscious, and tuning into what messages might be trying to get my attention.
These messages give me clues as to where it started, and what limiting beliefs were picked up at that time. I can usually look back on my life to see how those lies created all sorts of havoc for me.
Limiting beliefs (lies) cause pain. All kinds of pain. That’s what they do.
And yes.... even physical pain.
(That may not make sense if you haven’t studied it yet, but if you whittle it down… you’ll find them.)
The severe migraines and headaches, asthma and allergies of every kind, chronic illnesses that caused me to feel exhausted all the time, that caused my body to ache, that caused brain fog, and just made me feel sick… all. of. the. time...
Years and years and years of neck pain and structural issues, 4th stage Addison’s disease (adrenal failure), and then more recently - accidents that caused all sorts of pain, including a traumatic brain injury which has caused severe memory loss, disorientation, dizziness, vision alteration, disconnect from myself and others, and feeling scared out of my mind, even as an adult woman,
and more...
(this is just a taste of the physical pain I've had to juggle…)
Experiencing all these things physically gave me a clue that my body was screaming to tell me something, and I eventually discovered… after much study and learning and tuning into my body…
That I had been severely abused… by several people... in every way…
and most of my life I didn’t remember because my brain had blocked it out (repression is a common trauma response).
But my body remembered, and it was desperately trying to get my attention (so to speak) so that I could process through the painful emotions, release the lies that I was told, and eventually heal and have a more peaceful and healthy life.
So year after year, as I gained skills and techniques, I worked through many many horrific experiences from my past, and have released a lot of pain and suffering in my life.
You don’t have to have severe abuse in your past to be dealing with the same type of ideas that manifest as pain. Lies are lies and pain is pain... and it all hurts.
Pain… whether physical, mental or emotional, often shows up to let us know that something is wrong…out of balance… And that some inner part of us needs to be healed.
I spent so many of my early years working very hard to help my body heal, through vitamins and nutrition, changing of diet, allergy shots, doctors, you name it…
But not until I went deep into my soul, did things really start changing.
Most of my family and close friends that know me have been aware that I’ve had some really hard things happen to me in my life, and truthfully… They don’t even know the half of it.
It’s been frustrating to have such beautiful and positive intentions, to work so hard at creating health and beauty and functionality, but to only often have negative and painful things continue to happen.
It’s been confusing for me, and for everyone else…
So I’ve had to commit to spending a lot of time digging deep into my soul in order to heal myself: reprogramming & repairing, inner child work, deep psychology, reframing, creating new healthy patterns, focusing on truth, and love love love.
Christ has been with me through it all... for which I am so grateful.
His guidance, tenderness, Presence and Love has saved me in every way... and I will forever praise His name for taking care of me in His special Way.
My angel mother has also been with me as I have writhed on the ground in agony and torture, as I have sobbed in grief and confusion, and as I have desperately sought to figure out my very unusual life...
Her words of comfort, her gentle reminders, her presence when I was ever so lonely,
literally kept me from ending my mortal life many times when things were just too repetitively and excruciatingly painful, and way too heavy for a person to carry.
The last while I have noticed that there is still some deep anger that needs to be released.
I’m normally a nice, loving, thoughtful, positive person, and I haven’t been an angry person, but the anger is continuing to show up… letting me know that it is time for it to be resolved.
So maybe I’ll work on that today…
I’m going to do some scribbling, inner child work, and talking with the Lord to see what can be released.
Resolving our pain is like coming out of a prison. It's Freedom.
And we all want to be free.
If you are reading this and have any kind of pain in your life, I just want to say to you,
“I see you, and I am so sorry for the pain that you’ve been feeling…
It must be horrible, and my heart just aches for you.
I’m giving you a big hug and hoping it will ease some of your burden.
Pain hurts and sometimes it doesn’t feel fair, and it's ok to just cry about it sometimes.
You are worth being loved… And healed.
I care about you and pray that you will feel better soon.”
~ Lisa